I got all discombobulated yesterday in the grocery store.
Lizzy's favorite food is bacon. When I got to the bacon section I realized I won't be making it as much (hear that groaning? Mike must've just read this.) Then there were the lunchables she always took to the pool when lifeguarding. By time I got to the cream cheese, my mind was spinning. She likes to burn a bagel, put about a half inch of cream cheese on it and then a layer of bacon, put the top on and eat it like a sandwich. We go through a lot of cream cheese.
Wait - not anymore.
That's what got me all discombobulated. Life is getting ready to change and I can't really picture this change yet. At all. A big part of who I've been is the one that knows what each kid likes on their sandwiches. Who eats peanut butter with nuts and who eats smooth. Cereal prejudices was an upper level class all on it's own.
Cooking and shopping for two, sounds so much simpler - but I can't imagine it. We're in that inbetween time. Things are changing, last times are happening, newness hits each of us around every corner. The check list of things to get done is getting shorter every day and I can't think.
And I don't want to feel.
I don't want to look at this too closely and yet it's so compelling. Such an adventure - for all of us. And I know us - it will end up a good adventure.
But who could've imagined it would come so soon.